few days ago...my Ms Pun left us. Yesterday, Mr Pun left us...i am so sad..like, both gone together..they reli show me the meaning of 'till death do us part'..oh, n do u noe who's de murderer? its him! yes him! eversince he started to feed them, they became weak..last time when i was the one who fed them religiously every morning, they were so lively! n now that he is de one who fed them everyday, dey died! YOU are a murderer.


now, ive got a new goldfish, the lion head kind which looks like de brain is too big for the head. but it can never ever replace the original Mr and Mrs Pun.

Rest in peace my dear fishes..Love you! ok..my frens might think im crazy but i reli sayang the fishes, as much as i love Ting Tong n Baby...they are my precious darlings...now i would like to have a guinea pig..n soon i Will have one!

sat afternoon, home alone. sat night, will be home alone. how sad.
hope nid n damai are fine n enjoying themselves in bangkok!
sofia, missssss you! n TAKE CARE!

Love.

here again..blogging..

feel so tired n listless these days. or perhaps lazeeeeeeeeee..

work, sleep, work, sleep....how nice (u wud tink)..but not so....
coz in between..many thoughts running thru this pee brain....wild thoughts that is..

(Wat is he doin? is he reli at werk? have he eaten? wat if he's not at werk? wat if he's up to no good? wat if....? wat if.....? wat if....? wat if.....?........)

lately, ive been tinking abt death. where do we go wen we die? life is unpredictable...wat if the day is tmr? or ltr? wat if i lose my love ones? where do they go? will they be fine? will they suffer? i duno y but it makes me sad thinking abt all these coz i dun wan them to suffer...hmmm...y im having such thots? dun ask...

Happy birthday my dearest Alene...
and...happy 2nd birthday to my little Asher Jes Lee..

tho every sun is our day, i stil feel dat i dun have enuf. coz u spend half de day aslp. once ure ready, its sunset...by den, we cant do much as mon is a werking day n ive got to rest early...
wuden it b nice if i were to wake up to a breakfast in bed....by u?....hmmm...wishful tinking huh...

Love.

when you feel like de most loneliest person in de universe, a child's smile and laughter changes it all.

a blessing in disguise it is...jus wen everythings turning upside down, my life at work is booming..straight up. im starting to love what im doin. i love my kids.. their innocence. their smile. their laughter. their stubborness. their irritatingness (if there's such word.) Their smelly poo poo. Their cute little backside. Everything about them.

i wish im them. no need to worry abt anything in the world, abt frens. abt love. abt whether ur partner is spending enuf time wit u...n all the troubles in the world!

~and after all that's been said and done. You're just a part of me I can't let go~

Love

little little surprises every now and then would be very nice...

Love.

he said: i think ah, u shd wear hearband to werk.
she said: y?
he said: everytime i fetch u, i see one mad woman come out of the gate.
she said: ????
he said: ur hair always everywhere one. but ure stil my darling n i love you..(with that cheeky smile)
she said: (pinch him.very hard..as usual)

seriously, where got time to think of beauty n all when ure with a bunch of unlatched monsters?! today, i felt like throwing them onto the wall.. hehe..but i kept calm. breathe in and out n jus continued with everythink...

sometimes, i tink to myself whether im cut out for this job..but then again..i jus take eveythink on as a challenge n I, Noor PuPahPin (as he says it) will get thru all storms n thunder, rain or hail, drought or flood...with a smile on my face =)

after all said n done, i Love them stil...some of them more, some not so much. hehz...yes..im biased, but i dun show it. its jus that, u reli wish u can bring some of them home with you everyday..hee..

as for my big boy at home, i love him the most. wish i can put him inside my pocket n bring him everywhere i go...=)

Love.

ps: had my dosage of long awaited durian n its jus so.mMMMMMmmmMmmmMm...SeDap!

de start of a brand new week n a brand new month.
happy monday.

weekend. well spent leisurely..hence, all work not done.
the other day, was talking to him dat mebbe i need a fren in tamp, so dat i wont b so bored everyday. but then i told him, frens dun jus drop frm de sky..

i wish...

u'd rush home knowing im sick.
i hv frens staying in tamp to take away my boredom.
i can have a rest day tmr (but i cant as there are 4 new children n short of tchers)
u'd plan little little pleasant surprises for me now and then.
u'd appreciate n see things frm my view (It hurts wen u say i lazy lazy @ home wen ive been de one cleaning up after u)
i can learn how to understand u (ive tried)

rite now, ure msging me all stuff for me to get comfy at home. but u noe, my best remedy is having you beside me..now.
i noe u noe, n i noe u cant.

Love.

have i told u how much i love this movie..
i jus love the way LOVE is potrayed here. the things ppl wld or wldnt do for love. other than the very fact that the hottie takeshi acts in it, the storyline is superb.
i can watch it like a thousand times n fall in love with the show over n over again..no im not exaggerating...
all the songs in de show are like so so nice...quite true what they say Love is all about....
~Everyone wants to find out. who's the one love of their lives? More so melancholy, especially ard midnight. Eyes closed with heart unsettled. Becoz deep inside, u noe that was love. If that was really love, shd have stayed before you turned away. Even with pain, even with tears. Even with countless lonely nights. Love..why is it always clearer looking back? Even with pain, even with tears. The feelings remained after love was long gone. If that was really love. If I'd understood it when it happened. Wld my life be any different? Especially ard midnight. When I think about the future. Can I be at peace with the present, and ask myself what is love? If that was really love, shd have stayed before i turned away. Even with pain, even with tears. Even with countless lonely nights. Love...why is it always clearer looking back? Even with pain, even with tears. The feelings remained after love was long gone. Because such was love.~

n so ppl ask what's wit the emo entries..
hehz. nutink much. jus wan to shout it out loud..u noe..time without him is UNBEARABLE!
n so another wkend has come n gone. went jb on sat wit fam. which ended with supper wit nid n damai after dat. where else? simpang of coz. time spent with them can nvr be better. n so de secret was-'can i open my button? its too tight.' well, i hv dat secrets too sometimes. hee..
at last a full whole uninterrupted day spent wit darling on sun. TMNT was ok. nice. turtles are jus so sute arent they? hmm...wish my Ting Tong can b as strong as them! haha...mebbe one day i watch too much tv n den de radiation stuff gets to my Ting Tong n one morning i wake up to him training his fighting skills in de living rm! n Baby can b de Sinseh! haha. u noe...de trainer of the turtles! haha..ok..i noe it doesnt werk dat way. ok.
n so i got my Perhaps Love OST. BUT...its copy controlled!!! meaning i cant trf de song to de com or hp no matter how i try! urgh..frustrating..
n so i jus killed a bee dat entered into my rm. tho i was scared but seeing it flying ard in de rm is scarier...
oh..n ive got my phone! thanks many many to my Mr PePehPan! PuPahPin Loves you!
Love.

What if one day, u wake up n tel me dat its over?
What if one day, u tel me dat its no longer me that u love?
What if one day, u distant yourself frm me?
What if one day, u start avoiding me?

What if one day, u stop saying ‘I love you’ to me?
What if one day, u realize that She’s better than me?
What if one day, u say ‘jus leave me alone’ to me?
What if one day, u start to keep secrets frm me?
What if one day, u stop coming home to me?

What if one day, u feel dat She’s the one?
What if one day, u stop noticing abt me?
What if one day, my name in ur hp becomes suhasrin?
Or worse, cant even b found in ur phonebk?

What if one day, ur heart no longer hv me in it?
What if one day, u start having late night supper with Her, leaving me waiting for u at home in vain?
What if one day, u start to complain abt every little things I do or din do?
What if one day, u say dat u hv to werk everyday but actually spending time wit Her?

What if one day, u no longer wan to eat my cooking?
What if one day, u no longer ask me ‘have you eaten my dear’?
What if one day, u no longer kiss me goodnight?
What if one day, u no longer hug me to slp?
What if one day, u no longer kiss n hug me before I leave for werk?

What if one day, u no longer wan to share your life with me?
What if one day, u no longer wan to share your happiness, joy, sorrow n whatnot wit me?
What if one day, I come home n find my stuff all packed, wit u asking me to leave?
What if one day, u tel me ‘im sorry. Its jus not working out anymore’?

What if one day, u no longer wipe my tears away for me?
What if one day, u no longer comfort me when im scared?
What if one day, I wake up n find u whispering sweet nothings to Her on de fone?

What if one day, all these were to come true?

n so its sunday....again. how boring is dat. hmm
had an ok sat. catch up wit my bro n all.n so it was a happening sunday morning today. woke up to de hornings of the karang guni man...was pretty irritated coz i jus wanted to hv a gd slp! but i tot to myself...they are jus human like me who wants to make a living. so i breathe in n breathe out, let go of my anger n tried to get back to slp...hmm...failed to. so jus decided to get up...n finish up de chores i needed to do. but my dear dear dearest piggy was slping so soundly beside me. i guess even if de country was under attack he wld b soundly aslp stil..n once i got up, got a fone call...de fone read 'Alamak! Calling...' ok...dat name in my fone means its daddy calling. he doesnt call me for no rhyme or reason n so i ans. he wanted me to go home n pass him de house keys. my assumption--they either lost their keys while at the market or they forgot to bring their key out! ok...the latter was right! he locked themselves out. n so i told him i will take one hr to get there n he said that wld b fine.n so me de superwoman woke up my superman n off we rush to telok blangah all de way frm tamp. hee....i feel so filial coz my dad called my brothers but they din ans his call.....hee...aint i a lovable daughter? hmmmm...n so dat was my so called happening sunday morning. off to have our brkfast at coffee bean n found 3 strands of hair in one of our plate. eeeeeeeee....darling got it changed n no big fuss happened. they apologized n changed a brand new plate of brek-o-day for us! yay!now all alone at home. feeling bored n lonely. You over there at the handphone shop, pls behave urself at all times. Love.

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you walk out when we quarrel,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate it when you bite your nails,
And the way you scold me when you’re mad,
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me cry.
I hate the way you think you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around,
And the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
Not even a little bit,
Not even at all.

ok. so today's his last day. whoo hoo..

however, no more lorry cruising tho, but its ok as long as he doesnt suffer dere anymore..

im so stressssssssss at werk dat missy is quite late. hmm..no worries tho, its nt late coz of..u noe u noe..

feeling slpy alrdy. nice weather.

feeling happy for the whole week so far. reason: Darling has been coming home early! spent lots of nonsensical times together, n tmr onwards, he's gona tian mi mi wit me sending me to werk by bicycle. yay!

i feel like holidaying...hmm..shall take a day off next week...

Love.

happy thursday everyone!

ok. so dis week pl r stil in de new yr mood. nt many kids come to sch. come nx week its gonna b hell. 1 new kid. 2 new babies i heard..oh well.

so de hair is cut. jus dun undst y dey must mark up de price jus coz it was a public hol. hmmm..

my poor boy, pls quit dis job asap k. let those ppl rot in the freezers on their own since ur help is not appreciated n recognized.

ok. back to my bed. gona hv my beauty nap.

ZZZzzz..

Love.

ok. so de weekend wasnt so bad after all.
reunion dinner+movies+late at nite card games+losing 30Cents frm de game+sleep sleep n more sleep+ang baos=grt holiday spent!
1st, ghost rider was nice. ok. i wldnt noe after all coz was aslp 1/2 de time. norbit was funny.
red packet..stil counting.
darling, stil sleeping...

so dat's it for de holiday. back to de real werld tmr. B.O.R.i.N.G!

gona hv coffee bean brkfast ltr! yay! darling wants to bring me dere coz he said ive nt eaten it for quite sumtym alrdy. awww..isnt he sweet? hee..brkfast ends at 3pm for sundays n public hols..so darling stil can slp abit more..

Love.

today is de day! tmr too..........hving mixed feelings. haizzz..

had a grt week. had a grt valentine's. had a grt anniversary. managed to finish up his gift on time. i so love de wu kui soft toy n heart necklace u gave Darling. You are so my everything n nutink's gonna change dat fact. i love you...

sofia's back to boost land. so sorry cuden send u off. nid's forgotten abt my existence...

sumone reappeared in my life again. n its pissing me off. omg..havent tel him abt dis. i tink dat its unnecessary to tel him but yet again he has de rite to noe abt it. anw i din do anitink wrong so i shall jus tel him after cny...
dis person who reappeared pisses me off bcoz she asks me for things dat's so impossible! omg..i jus wish she'd stop bein dis way. without her in my life was fine n normal. she jus loves to destroy it like she did 4 to 5 yrs ago..anw wit her or not with her in my life is de same....jus wish she'd get a life n start being loyal n faithful to her gf coz im nt like her!

had a can-so-called fun cny celebration wit de little ones yest. i love these kids to bits..wish i can see dem grow up to being adults!


Happy Chinese New Year. May you be filled with prosperity, good luck n harmony all year round.

Love.

Cny..pls take ur time to arrive...hur hur hur..
Help me pls..Somebody!

Sat..urgh. dun even talk abt it. Din even get to see him. How sad i was..nobody wud noe. haiz..
went all de way down to junctn 8, dear damai waiting for me. bt wen she knew y i wanted to go dere for, she din wan to accompany me! I AM SO SO SAD! i mean...how often does he come to twn man..n i din get de chance to c!!!!!!!!!!!! haiya......for de idol, pls pls pls hold a concert one of dese days, coz at least wit tix, at least seats wld b allocated. haiz haiz haiz...sigh sigh sigh....

today, as i was walking hm, i notice de grass are all dried up n brown. no more greens... all thx to global warming. oh my God...i dun even wan to imagine wat de earth wld b like in 10 or 20 yrs time....

im tired.

Love.

Idol Day

its thursday 8 of feb. i stil havent send de letter to sch! i am so in a deep pile of smelly shit coz of diz!....sheesh.

sadly Darling cuden fetch me frm werk again. blehz..so dis lonely gerl made her way to tamp to buy paper fasterner to make de windmill for the kids. den she oni had $3.95 left for her lunch. left atm card at hm. n so she made her way to mcdonalds. thank God for the supersaver's
meal..she got her lunch.

do quarrels n arguments reli mk a rship stronger? hmmm....had a sad tues nite...had a great wed nite..hehe..n hopefully thurs nite wun b ani worst?

tmr's fri! whoo hoo!! cant wait. im so tired frm werk..

Valentine's day is like nx week. im stil cracking my brain on wat to do for him. haiz..sadly, his burfday gift dat i did is jus chucked here against de wall. i dun tink he even take glances at it...

Love.

whoah..its de 5th day of feb alrdy huh?..fast fast fast...
got my new digi cam on de wkend..its nt de exilim one tho! got the lumix! haha..de one dat u dun need to move back n back jus to fit de screen..n de stabilizer is cool. Sofia, you hv de shaky hands rite.hahz..no worry now.
nt yet told mummy abt de broken camera tho. too scared to tell..she's so gonna screw me. eeeks..nt looking forward to dat.
work's getting bz now.so many tings suddenly. damn de previous tcher to nt clean up her mess. great she has left! whoo hoo!! noe y im happy? coz to me she's nt suitable at all! u dun go ard beating other ppl's kids!be it lightly or hard, ure stil beating! that is a taboo in dis line but yet dat tcher was stil doin it. hmmm...
outing wit de cousins was fun! sadly it was too short..Abg eman, r u like goin to call/sms dat lady? hehe...gd luck! Go! Go! Go! wonder how she looks like tho...
Chinatown wit Darling is de best! as usual, finding a parking lot was a killer. his is a lorry wit de fridge so no multistorey carpark for us. got a lot btw 2 cars but Darling wasnt skillful enuf to park dere. hehe..at last got a lot after 15 min. nt too bad..n we walk n walk n walk...n walk n walk n walk n buy n buy n buy. bot some decorAtions for our rms.goodies too.yummy!...
hur hur...i so can wait for cny. nt in a hurry for it to come. hehz...reasons: XXX...oni for me to noe. hoho..
gtg find some artwork to do for dis wk's lesson for de little monsters! bye all..
Love Love.

Hip Hip Hooray!!

Speshow! Speshow! got my Speshow le!!!!!

Happy happy...hehehe....n got a big poster of my big big idol!
oh i lurrrrrrve it!

sorry Darling Jonas...i love you much much much but let me love him too k? hehz....

my frens...arab str was nice...superb.marvellous.
bubbles. five stones. nx trip???? where?

payday is here...digi cam, here i come. sadly, my old one dropped n cant b used anymore....
hopefully mummy wont scold me...

cousins n brothers...cant wait to see u guys on sat..its been a long time. miss de young n carefree days...meet meet n hang out, walk walk...now wit all our diff commitments, wan to meet for dinner oso difficult. haiyo...

work is gonna get more stressful.

Darling, chinatown on sat? walk walk...buy u things for ur new year k? everytime walk walk oni buy my tings i feel so bad...so now must buy u many many tings ok ok ok??? ok

My down there is like free flow bloody mary la....hehz...oversharing? hmmmm...

til nx time...

Love.

Fruiful Friday

Off to the lib after werk as Darling wasnt able to fetch me today.

hee..so fun! walking here n dere like some intellectual ass trying to find books on how to open a childcare. Got so many titles frm de catalogues but most are frm other lib, ref bks or on loan. worst stil, some are missing! instead, got a book on healthy cooking n also some useful bks like 'Discpline your Child the Right Way' n 'Success in the Education Business'. wanted some bk on fengshui but it was on loan. wanted some books on hamsters but it was missing! they shd write a bk on 'Your hamster that requires Special Needs'--i'd love to have that!

betta enjoy my free sat mornings as much as i can as im gonna start to werk on sat soon! hmph hmph....cannot enjoy alrdy loh....

was bz calling PCF regarding vacancies for nursery. finally got one wit onli 1 vacancy left! early bird catches the worm so i gotta be fast! my dear little one, betta study hard coz i did not! Hehz...

Zoo tmr frens? hmmm...
dun feel like being active outdoor lei...broke lar..
month end alrdy, nt enuf money to buy dar's season parking...hoho..gotta dig the Coca Cola piggy Bank for our coins savings...

Love.

suddenly, i feel so alone. i feel so frenless.... loveless...
blame me for always giving de frens outings a miss.blame me for always backing out wen u gerls plan to meet. but dey gimme de feeling dat wit or without me its jus de same. n indeed im right! yes? take de meeting we had las wk, 3 of us, me walkin @ de back.2 in front.bof of u chatting away, n i dun even noe wat its abt. oni after a few min dat u gerls realized im @ de back? hmm... @ tp, yes im nt a field person bt i went coz i wan to c my fren play. n she was wit her other frens. wen she came back, dey were talking to other frens, talking abt de game n all. like hello frens, i noe nuts abt touch, mebbe sum intro abt de game n how its played wud jus do fine. wat abt during smokin session, we wud lite it up tog, stand sumwhere outdoor n smoke. u wud end ferst n jus walk ahead n cont wit de journey. but my fren, im nt done wit mine. guess menthol lite takes longer to burn den menthol.
feeling helpless. wish de tears cud jus stop flowing.
looking at my fishes now. guess lookin at dem swimming ard in de water wit all de bubbles full of oxygen calms my mind...mebbe dats y ive got so many pets. im a loner..hohoho...
Love 'em....my mischevious Baby de 3 legged hamster, my lazy Ting Tong de turtle n my Mr n Miss Pun de Goldfish--or shld i say, de Dolphin trapped in a Goldfish body? (coz dey r always flippin ard like how a dolphin wld) To my pets who left us a little too early--The Original Ms Pun de Goldfish n SoTong de turtle, we miss you! rest in peace...
To my frens, i love you still..Hugs.
Darling Jonas, dis may sound a little bit cliche but I reli wont know wat i'd do without you.. Love you so much n thanks for always being dere for me despite how rubbish i can b. Love you love you love you!!

TGIF

FRIDAY! wat took u so long to come?...

had a nice trip tp chinatwn wit de gerls yest..sad dat it had to rain but glad dat it din dampened our spirits!

damai, hope ur quads r fine now. did u rem ur sugar rolls las nite? did nid "accidentally" brot it hm? hee.. take care during ur trip! weather's kinda bad.
sofia n nid, little india soon? cant wait!!

to de man of my life, sorry for my nonsense everyday. I Love You. But ure rubbish at times too u noe. i noe ure nt a superman but dun worry coz i'l make u one! Thnks for bringin de bacon hm. i'l earn more money in de future n make u a He-Tai-Tai! yes! coz it pains me to c u werk so hard..=)

had a double nitemare. like really catastrophe kinda ting.
Traumatized.

Darling, come home early.Miss u alrdy. til den...its DVD marathon.

Love.

pissed.

'Ring! Ring!

Person: (Loud n clear) Hello. Mam, can u hear me?
Me: Hello..yes i can.
Person: Hello. Hello. Can I speak to Lee Man Tock pls?
Me: Sori wrong number.
Person: (muttered) Oh sorry. (Hung up immediately)'

Like hello...pls b more sincere in dat sorry of yours as u were disrupting my beauty nap!

Earlier on at work:

'Ring! Ring!

Me: (wit my frenliest voice ever) Good Morning, The Preschoolers!
Person: Hi! Gd moring! Can I come down to collect my ...(unhearable)...dis morning?
Me: Hello? Yes? May I know how can I help you?
Person: Hello....yes..can i come down dis morning to collect...(duno wat she said again)..?
Me: Sorry? I cant reli hear you..cud u speak abit louder pls?
Person: Hi..is dis (duno wat duno wat) Dental n Surgery?
Me: Oh sorry Mam, u've gt de wrong number. Dis is a preschool centre.
Person: (Hung up!)'

Manners pls? even if uve gt de wrong number, where's your manners??? n wats up wit ppl keep dialling de wrong number? is it 'Dial-De-Wrong-Number Day' today?

on a diff note altogether.
so i need to write an official letter to MMI...hmmm
ok. no prob.
But de fact is dat MMI has nvr made a single call to me regarding my absence n dey claimed dey did!
ok.wth.

off to de market at 3. wat shall i cook today?

Happy Anniversary Love..

Here it goes...

A new day, a new year, a new blog.

Welcome. Welcome...

Have fun reading n poking your nose into my affairs...

Hugs to my friends and families...

Kisses and lots n lots of kisses dat is, to my one n only...

Love.