here again..blogging..

feel so tired n listless these days. or perhaps lazeeeeeeeeee..

work, sleep, work, sleep....how nice (u wud tink)..but not so....
coz in between..many thoughts running thru this pee brain....wild thoughts that is..

(Wat is he doin? is he reli at werk? have he eaten? wat if he's not at werk? wat if he's up to no good? wat if....? wat if.....? wat if....? wat if.....?........)

lately, ive been tinking abt death. where do we go wen we die? life is unpredictable...wat if the day is tmr? or ltr? wat if i lose my love ones? where do they go? will they be fine? will they suffer? i duno y but it makes me sad thinking abt all these coz i dun wan them to suffer...hmmm...y im having such thots? dun ask...

Happy birthday my dearest Alene...
and...happy 2nd birthday to my little Asher Jes Lee..

tho every sun is our day, i stil feel dat i dun have enuf. coz u spend half de day aslp. once ure ready, its sunset...by den, we cant do much as mon is a werking day n ive got to rest early...
wuden it b nice if i were to wake up to a breakfast in bed....by u?....hmmm...wishful tinking huh...

Love.

when you feel like de most loneliest person in de universe, a child's smile and laughter changes it all.

a blessing in disguise it is...jus wen everythings turning upside down, my life at work is booming..straight up. im starting to love what im doin. i love my kids.. their innocence. their smile. their laughter. their stubborness. their irritatingness (if there's such word.) Their smelly poo poo. Their cute little backside. Everything about them.

i wish im them. no need to worry abt anything in the world, abt frens. abt love. abt whether ur partner is spending enuf time wit u...n all the troubles in the world!

~and after all that's been said and done. You're just a part of me I can't let go~

Love

little little surprises every now and then would be very nice...

Love.

he said: i think ah, u shd wear hearband to werk.
she said: y?
he said: everytime i fetch u, i see one mad woman come out of the gate.
she said: ????
he said: ur hair always everywhere one. but ure stil my darling n i love you..(with that cheeky smile)
she said: (pinch him.very hard..as usual)

seriously, where got time to think of beauty n all when ure with a bunch of unlatched monsters?! today, i felt like throwing them onto the wall.. hehe..but i kept calm. breathe in and out n jus continued with everythink...

sometimes, i tink to myself whether im cut out for this job..but then again..i jus take eveythink on as a challenge n I, Noor PuPahPin (as he says it) will get thru all storms n thunder, rain or hail, drought or flood...with a smile on my face =)

after all said n done, i Love them stil...some of them more, some not so much. hehz...yes..im biased, but i dun show it. its jus that, u reli wish u can bring some of them home with you everyday..hee..

as for my big boy at home, i love him the most. wish i can put him inside my pocket n bring him everywhere i go...=)

Love.

ps: had my dosage of long awaited durian n its jus so.mMMMMMmmmMmmmMm...SeDap!

de start of a brand new week n a brand new month.
happy monday.

weekend. well spent leisurely..hence, all work not done.
the other day, was talking to him dat mebbe i need a fren in tamp, so dat i wont b so bored everyday. but then i told him, frens dun jus drop frm de sky..

i wish...

u'd rush home knowing im sick.
i hv frens staying in tamp to take away my boredom.
i can have a rest day tmr (but i cant as there are 4 new children n short of tchers)
u'd plan little little pleasant surprises for me now and then.
u'd appreciate n see things frm my view (It hurts wen u say i lazy lazy @ home wen ive been de one cleaning up after u)
i can learn how to understand u (ive tried)

rite now, ure msging me all stuff for me to get comfy at home. but u noe, my best remedy is having you beside me..now.
i noe u noe, n i noe u cant.

Love.