Say you're sorry, that face of an angel

Comes out just when you need it to,

As I paced back and forth all this time

Cause I honestly believed in you.



Holding on, the days drag on

Stupid girl, I should have known

Im not a princess, this aint a fairytale

Im not the one you'l sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell~

Love.

Last night, while Rummying...

Suhasrin to Sofia: Da cakap rummy?
Damai and Nid: Ah tudoh tudoh kena ambik card lagi.
Suhasrin: EH aper tudoh...i was just asking..

One of us: Eh siaper nyer turn ah?
Any of us: Eh cepat ah. Jalan ah!

Damai: Eh Suhasrin card lalu la. boleh nampak semua.
Suhasrin: Kalau orang ader amanah kan..even if i put the card in front of you, you wouldnt go n see..

Damai: Eh aper ni.....Cakap intercept NURHIDA!
Nurhida: (with the mina-est face)ok ah...INTERCEPT!
Sofia: INTERCEPT!
Damai: IT'S YOUR TURN! tak payah ckp intercept!

Suhasrin: Eh kiter orang satu hari tak gadoh tak boleh eh?

Like there was once when we all tried to be normal friends with each other.
With the goodbye hugs and all.
But it didnt work out.

Coz Damai showed us the finger right after the hug.

Lets just be ourselves.
Coz that's what I love about us.
Cant wait for fireworks.

Love.

Hello to the last week of 2009.

Pumped last Sat..and so.....

Bouncer: Yang ni namer siaper?
She: Sofia...
Bouncer: Lawa eh...

Siaper ni lah kiter kan.
Sofia skarang kan lawa.
UPtown girl, she's been living in her UPtown world...=)

And Sun..went over to Damai's in the evening,
supposedly to fill up the application form.
But we ended up watching S'pore Idol..
and it was very exciting indeed...

Suhasrin: Abeh Damai bising bising ni buat aper...vote ar if u wan him to win.
Damai: ok ah...number aper number...?
Suhasrin: .......(Engrossed with her FaceBook bowling).....
Damai: Eh....vote jugak ah..
Suhasrin: Ok fine i will..(rolls eyes)

And we did not vote in vain.
Congratulations Sezairi!

And after all the excitement we got hungry..

Suhasrin: Want to go eat anot?
Damai: ok ah..tapi Damai broke..
Suhasrin: Aiya...nvm la. lets go.
Damai: Ok wait let me get changed.
Suhasrin: Eh dah mandi ke belom?
Damai: Ala...satu hari kat rumah jer...
Suhasrin: EEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeee..

Suhasrin: Eat where? you always say west side VERY happening..
Damai: Eh happening aper...ok..there's Al-Azhar...Al-Azhar...(still thinking)......there's Al-Azhar...
Suhasrin: Oh wow..any other places...?
Damai: Al-Azhar!!!

And so we went to THE happening place in the west...

Im still craving for Cheng Tng tho...

Love.

Remember how we cried 10 yrs ago?


Haha.
The thing was, we were just goin to diff classes.
But we(I) cried as if sumone had passed on.


Some of us might have drifted apart over the years.
Some of us do not even keep in contact anymore.
Perhaps, some of us dun even remember today.

Anyway, why 23rd eh?

~Those were the best days of my life...~





Happy 23rd Loves....

Love.

Last week in Boracay,

one was busy 'Baby' here and 'Baby' there.
'Miss you baby' and 'Love you baby'.

And one was 'Sayang' here and well,
'Sayang' there.

And I,
was just pretending to be oblivious to all these.

Insensitive.
Hmph!

Wonder wat wld be Sofia's way of annoying me if she was there.

Damai..come back alrdy.
The other two are neglecting me. =(

Miss you all.
Sat then.............................................

Remember how you were always late for our dates?

Remember how you left me all alone searching for you in the middle of the night?

Remember how i trusted in you despite whatever bad things ppl said abt you?

Remember how angry you were when i said that a man hugged me at work?

Remember the 2 kg bdae cake you bought for me,
which we had to finish it all by ourselves?

Remember how we travelled aimlessly in the lorry?

Remember how we were hooked to TitansQuest?

Remember how you peeped over the door to surprise me when you reached home?

Remember how you bought chicken rice,
and send it to my then workplace everyday without fail?

Remember how you surprised me every now and then to fetch me home from work?

Remember how you cycled me to work every morning?

Remember how i looked after you when you got drunk?

Remember how you taught me to rollerblade? (Which i i stil cant master til today)

Remember those lazy sundays?

Remember how we would fight over the toilet?

Remember how you would style your hair with so much effort,
but at the end of the day you's still look the same?

Remember how we stupidly find for tailor to fix up the costumes for my children?

Remember how we sneaked in sandwiches to the movies?

Remember how i waited for you to reach home everyday?

Remember how we cycled from tamp all the way to east coast,
and i was half dead and cldnt cycle home?

Remember our 'i shouldnt be alive' days?

Remember how i would cook and waited for you to reach home and have dinner together?

Remember how you would let me have my way all the time?

Remember how you encouraged me in everything i that i did?

Remember how you pampered me all the time?

i do.

One thing about you,
You were very good with your words.
Yes.
But I know you meant every single word you said.
All those promises you did fulfil them.

You're not a sweet talker.
You've never been.
It's just that you really know how to compose your words,
to assure, and reassure me.

And you did,
for 21 months.

Happy Birthday Chen Jian Fan.

Love.

hi my sweetheart..

Da Lung...Da Lung..
Da Lung Da Lung Da Lung
Da Lung Da Lung...
(think pink panther)

See you my sweetheart.
Love.

And since im gonna stay at work till 6 ltr,
i shall watch this.
On youtube.
New drama.
Starring..*clears throat*..my hubbyyyyyy!!

Luo Zhi Xiang is his name. Love.




Hi my sweetheart!
Bye bye world.
Its me and him time now. Hoho.

Love.

He looks ah pek here.
but he's still my charming old man.




~zui ai ni de ren shi wo,
ni zhe me she de wo nan guo,
zai wo zui xu yao ni de shi hou,
mei you shuo yi ju hua jiu zou...~

Love.

This charming old man is gonna be in town tonight!
Huang Pin Yuan is his name.







And i am not gonna be there!

Pppppfffffttttt!!!!!

But i'd love to think that i'd be near him tonight.

(Me at work which is very near indoor stadium where he'd be. heh)

This song is a theme song from a movie that he acted as a gangster,

hence the big tattoo on the neck. But still charming..

Love.

New camera: Checked.

Ipod FM transmitter: Checked

Ipod docker thing (dunno wats the actual name): Checked

Next on list: GPS...laptop and phone too perhaps.



Electrical stuff can never last long with Suhasrin.
(or perhaps nothing can ever last long with her)

Every single electrical stuff i buy can never last me a year,
or perhaps just over a year.

Whoever that curse me on these electrical stuff, can you pls uncurse me?

Thank you very much.

While Eunice happily chats with her ex colleagues,

Suhasrin tried out almost every camera of every brand.

Poor salesman had to put in and take out the battery for the different cameras for me.

Then, the man saw the libra sign on my wrist.

Salesman: Ohhhh..you libra. No wonder cannot choose lar.

Suhasrin: What cannot choose? We must slowly weight the pros and cons of everything.

Salesman: No la. You all dunno how to weigh thats why you all need the weighing machine.

Suhasrin: Eh you know ar...the camera is still in my hand. i havent buy yet hor. Your sales quota is in my hands.

Salesman: Wah...ok ok you win alrdy.

Nice ppl at Song Brothers gave me the camera at cost price.

Thank you thank you.

Dear camera,

I promise to love and sayang you.

Despite not being pink.

I will still love and protect you always.

Love.

Suhasrin: Eh you watch Princess and the frog alrdy?
Eunice : Yar yar. Very nice.
Suhasrin: Good for you lar! i got nobody to watch with..
Eunice : Aiyo...So ke lian..
Suhasrin: CB you. Make me sound so pathetic.

And come to tink of it...yar im that pathetic.
Scrolling down my phonebook,
i realise that no one's free for me,
even to just go buy camera wit me,
hah.
yes..my camera is dead.
Place of death: Boracay.
Clever camera chose such a nice place to die at.

Its fri alrdy. how fast.
Good morning nice people!

Love.

THIS CRAMP IS KILLING ME!

and i ran out pads.
gave all of mine to Nid in Phil.
Hence, i need to drag myself.
To go buy pads ltr.
Perhaps, i'd need to crawl ltr.

It hurts so bad.
To make matter worse,
nearest shop that i can go to is:
Tiong Bahru or Vivo.
i dun even wan to think abt the traffic jam.

AAAaaaaarrrrrgggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somebody kill me pls.
Kill me till i die!
Coz the cramp is just killing me.
But not making me die.


In pain.

In Shen Zhen, China, they insisted that i'm from China too and didn't believe i'm Singaporean Malay.

In the early days in Phil, they say i look Chinese and my friends(Damai, Shy, Nid) are Filipinos.

After spending days in the beach under the hot sun, ppl start to talk in Tagalog to me.

How many days do i have to spend in India to be looking like one of them?



Mdm Mensus is very clever this month.
To visit after a day i reach home.
However, go easy on the cramp pls.
im in enuf pain alrdy.
Thank you. Salamat!

Updates on the Phil trip another day when the cramp is over.


Love.

Manila and Boracay!
See you soon.
i wish i can say the same to Taiwan too.
Sigh Sigh Sigh.
Sob Sob Sobzzzzzzzzz.

i dread the plane ride.
totally dreading it.
Aerophobia.

Goodbye Loves.

In the day, i nearly crashed into an oncoming car at a multistorey carpark.
That was very close.
Very.


At night, I knocked someone down.
Literally,
Tho he exaggerated a lil bit.
I swear i din see him coming.
Nonetheless, its my fault i know.
I unbuckled and was ready to get down the car to apologize and ask how is he.
He looked like he was going to beat me up.
But he just walked away after i wind down the window and apologized non stop.
Weird.



im superbroke.
how to holiday?
Its sad enough that its gonna be a taiwanless 2009.
oh well...



The other night i reached home late.
I took out my phone ready to dial your number.
To talk to you as i walk home. Like we always do.
Only to realise minutes ltr that you're not in town.



~You are far
Im never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces
And mend my heart
Maybe I'll be strong enough
I dont know where to start...

...Strange that I was wrong enough
To think you love me too
I guess you were kissing a fool~

Nice family portrait.

If it makes you happy.

Love.

And so we pumped on sat night.
I was kinda hungry so we had a quick bite.
Craved for frappe and so I McCafed.

Dear friends, lets McCafe first everytime we pump.
Heh. I'l gladly do the ordering..=)

Sent everyone back and by the time i reached home, its 5am.
Had to wake up at 630 to go work to finish up my damaged crabs.
Woke up with super aching body.
Danced too hard. Heh.
Another great way to destress.

And so it was time.
The day. THE day.
Party boys zhi dao xiong di wei ni cheng yao...Boom Yeah! Boom lets get this party crazy!

Eunice's class didnt turn out well all thanks to her God sister at the PA System.
She came out the backstage and cried when she saw me.
Apparently, her song was cut half.
like what the F***?
Irresponsible.
Not even an apology for cutting the song into half.
And even blame Old Airport ppl for not telling them the duration of the song.
F***er!
We went thru the rehearsal just fine!
And if theres no instruction for you to stop the song then dont stop it lar!!
We're not as lazy as you ppl who dance only half song for every item.
And it wasnt just Eunice's class.
She started almost all songs late!
Good thing for her she din screw mine.
Or else, she'd never get to see daylight again!

Im done with crabs.
At last.
I thought I'd never live to see this day.
heh.


Thank you to all who have helped in one way or another.

Goin Parkway wit Eunice now!
I want to eat.
Bye!


Love.

It read:


" Whatever happened to taking things slow..Heehee..But its a good thing la."
26th Oct. 2009 17:51

"Plus...i'd be damn stupid to let you go la...Really..."
27th Oct. 2009 10:14

" She is worth it...N im de type to wait..I just hope she wants to change..Not herself but her bad habits la..Even if she doesnt, im hooked..So im quite done for."
28th Oct. 2009 15:47

"...I promise to never make you cry..."
29th Oct. 2009 09:43

"...Really baby, this feels so right..:)"
31 Oct. 2009 02:21

"Are you kidding.. U dun think im worried? Its our first stumbling block..N i really think we can get over it..I know u said it first..baby i love u..N these past few weeks i feel loved, appreciated n cared for..And it's all because of u..Just dun take it away from me now.."
2 Nov. 2009 07:57

"I realized we've gone abt this de wrong way n im at fault..We keep saying we wanna take things slow but we didnt..."
4th Nov. 2009 11:07

"I know there is no reset button...But I wish there was..And I dun want to hurt you..De last thing i want is for tt..But really..We need to slow it down.."
4th Nov. 2009 11.35



Reading my inbox makes me smile.
And also tear at the same time.
I miss you.
So much.
But those feelings,
i shall just keep them with me for now.


Love.

Thur night while watching tv preparing to go to slp,
I smelled durians.
Yes!
But it was late at night and when i start to smell something that is out of sight,
it simply means im craving for it!
And so next morning i text my Queens in hoping that they would entertain my craving.
Being the sweetest creature on Earth, Sofia replied and yay!
Who on earth in the right state of mind would say no to durians? (Other than Saiful of course)


And durians we had.
Yuuummmmmmmmmmmmmm!


Suhasrin decides to Karaoke.
Never mind that Sofia was broke. Suhasrin belanja ok.
heh.
Nid and Siddiq joined us for that.
Impromptu karaoke was good.
to destress.
Before the tears started to drop, sofia pulled me out for a smoke.
Thank you love.


To dearest Queen of Club; Damai. Hope ure having fun!
Sorry that we durianed and Karaoked without you.
But we sure didnt forget you.
Missing you much and see you on Thurs!

Ps: Damai, we might pump tonight! hoho. dun worry.
Sofia just wants to make sure that addy's fine. hah.


~There are times it seems to me,
Im sharing you in memories.
I feel it in my heart but I dont show it, show it.
Then there's time you look at me,
as tho Im all that you can see.
Those times I dont believe it right,
i know it, I know it.
Dont make me promises,
baby you never did know how to keep them well...

...Is this how it ends,
with a simple telephone call,
you leave me here,
with nothing at all...~


Love.

Red top. Checked.

Did not drive.

Hence we 'cab marathon' (in eunice's words)

I guess me n her always very suay.

everytime take cab together the uncle sure very lor sor/ti ko.

during dinner, she sat there staring at me.

Rolling her eyes most of the times.

heh.

she confessed that i talk too much.

calls me irritating.

calls me a bitch. all the time.

and that she sees alot of her in me.

and alot of me in her.

She said that I was difficult to talk to last time.

But now she just wish that I would shut up.

hah.

and also, im her new Baby.

hahahahah..

Eunice: Eh B, i want to go that shop...
Suhasrin: (???????)
Eunice: hahahahaha..sorry sorry i thought ure Shamus!

Eunice ar...Wo hui bu hao yi si de leh..hahahah

Love!

5 more min and its time to knock off.



here i am blogging!



haha.



gonna shirt hunt ltr.



with eunice.



for a red top.



to wear on sun.



apparently, tchers need to wear same colour as their form class.



n so i'd need to wear like my crabs; red.



if its a dress i'l look like a hong bao. heh.



just hope i wont die on sun.



As i will be in red, i will come back to haunt if i were to die.



And the first place i'd haunt would be Young Talents.









The colourful vitagenssss i had are taking its effect now.



Other than the staircase, today the next place i visited most is the toilet.



hoho.

ok eunice is here.

Love!!!

On a Monday afternoon, a grandma n her beloved grandchild were playing telephone (u noe, those DIY phone that uses a thread to connect):


Grandma: Hello, can i speak to Nur Fitrizah pls?
Fifi: Yes i am her? why?
Grandma: Oh hello. how are you?
Fifi: i am fine thank you.
Grandma: What are you doing now?
Fifi: I am watching tv. Would you like to go McDonalds today?
Grandma: Sorry not today.
Fifi: Why?
Grandma: i got alot of work to do la.
Fifi: o ok then. nvm. Bye Bye!
Grandma: Wait wait! hello hello! Would you like to go to McDonalds tmr?
Fifi: Oh sorry. i got lots of work to do tmr! Bye Bye!


Hmmmm....a 6 yr old having sch holidays has lots of work to do??


Met up wit Damai who was with Shy @ Kampong Glam Cafe.

Phone rings. i answered:

Damai: Sempat tak kalau jumper kat kampong glam cafe dulu?
Suhasrin: Ya sure. i just left house anw.
Damai: You know where's the place right?
Suhasrin: Yar yar yar. Yang jual Teh Tolak tu kan?

heheheh. ok inside joke. But its funny wat. no meh? hahahha

it all happened on a cold rainy night at kampong glam cafe.

Waiter: Nak air aper dik?

Me: Teh satu.

Waiter left and came back shortly...

Waiter: Dik, teh nak teh biaser ke? Teh tarik ke? Teh aper? Teh ader banyak teh tau.

Me: Ah..teh tarik ah teh tarik satu.

Waiter left again and came back again...

Waiter: Tadi teh aper eh dik? Teh tarik kan?

Me: Teh tarik teh tarik...

Waiter: Betol eh teh tarik?

Me: Yer la bang...apaper ah. Teh Tolak pun boleh.

And the Queens looked at each other with complete silence.

Hey...its funny wat! heh.

And Damai, i want that shiny top and shiny leggings!!

Sofia, im sure OBS was VERY fun for you. i'l show you the 'wei sen you' oil. and you'l do just fine in ports. Think of it, its very near my house! =)

Nid, hope the HDB application went well.

And he has a name now, Knight he will be. Knight-o....adapted from Zettai Kareshi. An ideal boyfriend. Who's custom made according to wat the girl wants and needs.

Knight-O has always been there for me. When im alone n sad he has never abandoned me.

Even when he's tired and petrol light is blinking, he stil made it to the nearest petrol station wit me.

On another note,

Can i just lie in your arms forever coz it just feels so perfect.

~i wanna know what love is,
i want you to show me,

i wanna feel what love is,

i know you can show me...~




Love.

~ knife, cuts like a knife.

how wil i ever heal.

im so deeply wounded...


perhaps i can never be the person uve wanted me to be.

perhaps im never the person whom you thot i was.

perhaps we're trying too hard.

perhaps ure stil holding onto something from the past.




Love.

whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywyhwhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
wyhwhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy
whywhywhywhywhy?

L o v e .

Sitting at a staircase on the 4th floor doin what we always do together:

Me: Cant wait for thur leh. last day of the week!
Eunice: Huh? why last day?
Me: Last day lar. fri public hol mah!
Eunice: No la. Ms Yeo say no more hol liao. so fri must come back.
Me: Huh? Eh public hol means public hol lar! you wan u come back work alone!
Eunice: really meh? got hol meh?
Me: Nvm. u can come back k. im going to celebrate my hari raya haji that day.
Eunice: (Still dun believe)

Sometimes, being with her really makes me feel smarter.
But u noe ure the best! =)
Next time cannot ek-ek drink colourful vitagen like me.


Love.

F*** lar!
he has alrdy stopped crying.
You busybody for wat?!

Mind your own F**king business lar.
Just stay in the kitchen and cook
coz that's wat ure hired for!!

Where's my phone charger???!!!!

Need to complete my crab.
I need red tights!
im not asking for much.
Just cheap children's red tights pls.
Over budget alrdy.
3 for $28 from Mothercare is too costly.

i was practically screaming at parkway.
n eunice is sweet enough to say that i wont die alone.
coz she's there with me.
haha.



Love.

Glad we had the talk.

Now i understand.

i do.



No im not affected.

At least not in a bad way.

But perhaps it got me tinking.

About myself and how ive carried myself all these years.

24 years to be precised.



i really wanna thank you for telling me all your thoughts.



i am sincerely sorry for not having been a good friend.

and that truly came from me.

not coz he talked to me about it. (kinda sad when u said that tho)



11 years. And still counting....



As much as i cant stand the sudden-without-warning loud burps.

As much as i cant stand the upward rubbing of nose.

But thats what makes you special.



I Love you girls.



And as much as you cant stand my gagging-and-forever-want-to-vomit actions,

I know you love me too.

Heh.



~hugs~



Ps: A month ago, i drank THE tastiest ever teh in my life. =)

Bye Bye Taiwan.

Love.

Driving along my fav expressway, i heard a quote on radio which goes:

I know i'm in love when ive seen him everyday for the whole week but it feels like i haven't seen him enough.

How true...



Love.

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'l be waiting,
all there's left to do is run.
You'l be the prince,
and I'l be the princess.



Love.

Im so in Love wit Show!

Droolssss...

Glow Cap (how nice! a cap that glows in the dark!)

Black Gold Cap

Alien Evolution Studio and

Stage Hyaline of the World Cap

how cute...Xiao Zhu's and Xiao Gui's brand combine...

100% Entertainment Tee.

Front view

Back View

Shout Out Tee (Kids size though)

1st Aniversary Tote (HK)

and i wonder again why didnt i find it back in HK dat time...

Perhaps it was sold out.

Sadness...

And, all the above items can only be found in Taiwan!

Ultra sadness.

These would probably cost me not more than 10 000 NTD in total.

That's only if i were to spend in Stage alone.

But im sure it'l be launched in S'pore soon...

Yes..soon pls...

And back in Singapore...

Stage Meshes Paka Black Jacket

Stage Meshes Jacket

And check this out!

Stage Reversible Jacket (red)

And....the moment of truth...

Total = $613

That is Stage Singapore.

So plus Stage Taiwan......

hmmm...i dun even dare to do the calculations..

Oh well...............

i just spent $600+++ at Stage last month.

Sheesh....

Can i just work part time there so that i can earn enough to buy those items?

i think i should.

heh.

Love.

I was almost about to lose my faith
Was still dreaming but feared it was too late

But then you came along to my surprise
And stole my heart before my very eyes

You took me right out of the blue
Simply by showing that you love me too
Only by giving me your everything
With a love so true you took me out of the blue

I was wondering what love was all about
I was trying but couldn�t work it out

But then you came along to my surprise
And stole my heart before my very eyes

You took me right out of the blue
Simply by showing that you love me too
Only by giving me your everything
With a love so true you took me out of the blue

You let me out of the darkness
You brought me out in the sun
I think you must be the only one for me
Cos you took me

Right out of the blue
Simply by showing that you love me too
Only by giving me your everything
Breathing air below my wings

You took me right out of the night
Simply by filling my heart with light
Only by giving me your energy
With a love so true you took me out of the blue

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Love.

Cry...

Crying...

Cried...





Love.

When ppl asked how i find u and wat attracted me to you,
i went: Hmmmmm...

i just smiled.

and u went: Ye la..im not attractive wat and bla bla bla.....

i told u: I know it in my heart wat i see in you and that's all that matters.


Im so thankful for you.


You said: Why must you be so perfect?

I said: im not. im just a normal girl.

You said: Ok. Ure almost perfect..


But i'd like to think myself as perfect now.

Because now, Ive got you.




Love~

its been 1 week since the SOS sms.

its because of ppl like you that makes me lose faith in men.

Ppl like you put a bad name to something sacred called L.O.V.E.





Hate.

Can someone play the guitar and sing this for me? heh~

Ultra sweetness...

Love.

i noe ure lying.

but why do i allow myself to be lied to?

i noe im gonna get hurt.

but why am i allowing myself to get hurt?

i noe this is goin nowhere.

but why am i still here?








Love.

In a way, I need a change
From this burnout scene
Another time, another town
Another everything
But it's always back to you

Stumble out, in the night
From the pouring rain
Made the block, sat and thought
There's more I need
It's always back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around ~


heartache is here to visit me again.

oh well.

Love.

On 10th July 2009, Friday, at 9.45pm, I entered the store at Bukit Merah branch as I wanted to buy take-away from there. I joined one of the queues and at approximately 9.50pm, it was my turn to order. It was my most unpleasant experience at KFC ever.

My intended order was a buddy meal, one set of D1 which I traded the coleslaw for cheese fries and changed the drink to iced milo, an ala-carte order of large whipped potato and ala-carte order of zinger.

A service staff by the name of Wenting (a slim, tanned, long-haired chinese girl) had served me. She greeted me and started to take my order. However she turned her back on me to pack my order even before I was done ordering. Is that the standard procedure of your service staff at the counter? To quickly turn around without even saying 'hold on' or 'sorry'? Why is it that she did not key in my order first before proceeding to pack my food? As mine was a relatively large order, it resulted in me having to repeat my order several times to her.

Secondly, when I wanted to trade in my coleslaw for a cheese fries, she suggested that I upgrade it to a large whipped potato instead, which I declined.

When I told her of my order of ala-carte zinger, she told me that I would need to wait for 5 minutes. I answered her 'ok'.

When most of my order has been packed, I went to the side of the counter to check my order in the plastic bag. However, I found that I was short of a whipped potato which was supposedly to go with my order of set D1. When I notify her about it, she said that she has given me 2 large whipped potato for the buddy meal instead as they have run out of regular whipped potato.

First of all, she did not inform me earlier that the store has run out of regular whipped potato. Secondly, is your logic 3 regular whipped potato equals to 2 large whipped potato? The thing is, the order that I am purchasing is for 3 different people. So does it mean these people have to share the whipped potato?So i asked her, "So you're saying that you're not giving me whipped potato for my set D1?" She reacted by saying nothing but instead, turned around, took out a whipped potato and slide it over the counter top to pass it to me without even looking at me. I wondered why no apologies?

At 10pm exactly, Wenting came up to me with a Bandito in her hands. Without apologizing or anyhting of that sort, she asked if I want to change my order of zinger to a Bandito. When I asked her why, she said that I would need to wait TEN minutes if I still wanted my zinger. I asked her why ten minutes when she had earlier on promised that it would just be 5 minutes?? Her reply was ,"Because zinger finish already, so if you still want, have to wait ten minutes", She also told me repeatedly that Bandito is the same price as zinger. However the issue here isn't the price of the item but rather the promised that she had made earlier that we needed to wait just 5 minutes for the zinger.

I got very upset at this! So i told her that she shouldn't have promised us to wait 5 minutes for the zinger earlier on if she had known that there's no more zinger. She responded by looking away with a displeased face. I wondered again why no apologies?

I was in a hurry and couldn't wait for another ten minutes for the zinger, so I reluctantly agreed to the change. She just put the Bandito down on the counter top beside the plastic bag that contained my order and walked away. So now I had to pack the order myself?

I understand that all the staff was busy doing closing as the store closes at 10pm. But does it mean that they have to serve customers in a hurry and bad attitude like this?

I too have worked in the F&B line before as a counter staff as well and I can understand the kind of fatigue one experience standing there for hours taking orders one after another. However, I don't think displaying this kind of attitude to customers is right.

On your website, I have read that 'To become a Team Member at KFC, you will need to possess great communication skills and strong work ethics. You must be committed to delivering outstanding customer services...' I did not see that in Wenting.

KFC has been one of my favourite fast food restaurants in Singapore but after this experience, I don't know if that statement of mine still stands.



Do you feel me? Or do i sound like an unreasonable customer?

i miss the feeling of being blissfully happy.

i miss the feeling of being loved and in love.

i miss the feeling of finding joy in everything.

i miss the feeling of being spoilt.

i miss the feeling of being pat to sleep.

i miss the feeling of simple joy in life!

i miss the feeling of laughing at everything and anything.

i miss the feeling of 'You complete me'.

Love.

While watching tv one day, beautiful Venice was on screen.













Me: Waaaaah.....Venice lei. So nice hor...


Mr Im-The-Smartest-of-All: Nice meh? Where got nice? Got Tsunami 1st one to die! See, all the water everywhere. Confirm got tsunami die one!






Where have all the wise men go to?

I DONT DESERVE THIS SHITTY TREATMENT FROM YOU!!!!!!!!!!

GOD!

gone were de days when sumone genuinely cared and take care of me on my (mensus) cramp days!

instead, wat i got was de usual ting:

grumble (for waiting with me at the clinic for too long)

n so Mr Doctor gave me 2 days MC.

n 4 types of medicine which:

doctor specified oni to eat when necessary!

n oni to eat the muscle relaxant first!

n oni to eat de cramps medicine if the muscle relaxant doesn't work!!!!

but no...de 'smart' one insist i eat all!

so i said: u duno wat de doc said. he said oni eat this one (muscle relaxant). cramp medicine oni eat if the mnuscle relaxant doesn't work.

in de end: he snatched everything away rudely. n walked out of de room!

wtFFFFFFFFFFF!

i bet u dun even noe how to read relaxant! wat more the meaning of it!

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!

i noe. no one's to blame. oni myself.

i need to get out!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes.

im wishing and hoping and thinking and praying...

Love.

YOU PISS THE SH*T OUT OF ME!

how do the filipino maids and indian bangalas communicate to each other?

or mebbe love really do conquer all.

problem is: love is not around for me to conquer all the shits!

f*ck.

f*ck off.

f*ck off to a far far away land.

your language sucks n dun blame me for being deaf for not hearing your qns.

bloody sh*t!

argh!

im so not enjoying my this period of life.

its so not goin into any chapter of 'The Happiest Time of My Life'.

in most of my rships,

there's always sumone that i look forward to see wen i finish werk/school.

but now, i only look forward to going home to sleep.

not looking forward to seeing that sumone.

n yes. i do go home jus to sleep.

i always fall asleep by 9 on working days.

n weekends, im usually out with friends till late.

if not, will fall asleep by 11 at most.

Yay!

so i think ive got my ans to my previous post!

Love.

do i love him?

do i?

do i?

do i?

do i?

do i?

do i?

do i?

do i?

do i?

i dunno.

mebbe i dun wan to admit that i do.

mebbe i dun wan to admit that i dun.

but seriously...im always ready to jump ship.

hah. thats always the case for me.

always jumping into another ship once a new ship docks.

well. now the harbour is empty.


how can i b wit sumone that:

1) never encourages me in whatever i do. (even if wat i wanted to do is ridiculous)

2) discourages me in whatever i do.

3) talks to me rudely

4) is not willing to improve himself!

5) so self centred

6) talk big but do nothing to achieve it!

7) always thinks he's right and the whole world is wrong

8) and the list goes on.

I dun mind if u spell Esplanade as Es Per Nei.

but at least try to do it right the next time.

not just brush it off when im trying to teach u the correct way.


seriously, i need to do sumtink abt my life!

Love.

Eye Candy

on a weekend that im suppose to complete my assignments,
here i am...watching korean series.

JO IN SUNG!

but this one below will always be number 1!

hehe!

Love.

Singapore Entertainment Awards

Congratulations Honey!

heh.

Love.

missing the days i was called 'monster'.

dun b mistaken.

am not missing the person who called me that tho.

missing the days i was in l.o.v.e.

miss the days of being in love.

Love.

* Party Boys zhi dao xiong di wei ni cheng yao
BOOM YEAH BOOM Let’s get this Party! Crazy!*

Too small to read?

Hah! Basically, Ive won a PRIORITY Q Tix to Show Lo's autograph session!!!

Thank you Sofia for the link!

In de morning wen i read this mail @ werk, my 3 1/2 year old boy got shocked from my screaming thinking i had seen a cockcroach.

Sorry Dear Tristan ...

sorry to have interrupted your visit to the toilet. I love you!

Me: Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

Tristan: (ran out of the toilet n came to me with a concern face) Teacher Su, wat happened?


Me: Aaaaaaaaah! Teacher Su can see Luo Zhi Xiang!

Tristan: Luo Zhi Xiang? Oh....Teacher Su can see Luo Zhi Xiang at where?

Me: I can see him at Eastpoint!

Tristan: Ooooooh! Eastpoint......Eastpoint at where?

Me: At Simei! Yay! I can see him!

Tristan: Oh at Simei.......Teacher Su....I wan to go pass urine................

and it was an exciting day!

I was like de 1st few in de Q.

OMG! OMG!

My mind is still at last evening's autograph seesion.

yar....thinking how tired he must be to sign for over 5000 ppl!

poor thing...at 8 he started, at 10 plus, he's stil signing!

N today he'l be at entertainment awards, so sad cannot b there.....no tix!!

nvm...will wait for his concert!

n yes yes yes!!!

ive seen him!

Thank you God.

N it wasnt seeing him from far....

it was like face to face!

n we shook hands!

Twice!

(ok, he shook everybody's hands...but im happy to be one of them!)

just thot u shud noe, i did not srcreamed n shout wen he arrived.....

de excitement was all kept within!

hah...shy la.....

OMG!

i stil cant belif we shook hands!

hah...after he signed mine and after seeing him so upclose....

i went on n on to Mr E about how thin he is now.....

he works so hard that he's lost so much weight.

Poor thing right......





(all other images @ facebook)


Love. Love. Love. Love. A thousand Love.

TGFS!

TGFS!

Thank. God. For. SHOW!

Sofia, my dear fren, posted a link for me in her blog.

how nice.

Sofia! I read ur blog before i read my tag.

so can u imagine de excitement wen i read your post?

yes! the same reaction i had when we were at mcdonalds de other time!

yes yes!

THANK YOU LOVE!

n i reli appreciate ur support,

even if its jus frm ur bedroom window.

and yes!

HE IS COMING!

TO SINGAPORE!

WHOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!

2 years ago, Damai made me miss this. (see below)

urgh! i was already there,

and my dear damai made me turn back!

hmph!

fri fri fri!

cant wait!

cant wait!

oh my God!

oh my God!

oh my God!

Dear God,

please please let me see him!

even if its from far!

yay!

Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love!

I WANT TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not that i bother about the other artists but look carefully......

who do u see????

yes! yes!

HIM! HIM!

18th April!

but 1st, i need tix!

2nd, i need $$.

hopefully by march wen de $$ comes in, dere's stil tix!

**Fingers n toes and everything else crossed**

Love.

Happy Valentine's.

hope ur day was filled with love.

mine?

spent half de day at werk.

another 1/4 watching dvd (Nanny Daddy).

another 1/4 sleeping.

hee.

yes...it was lovely to sleep.

hope urs was as lovely as mine~

Love.

I know your language is limited.

but pls. jus learn up this one word.



R.E.S.P.E.C.T

A dream is a wish your heart makes..................~

just let me sleep a little while more and enjoy the dream.
pls pls pls.
can i choose my dream for tonite?
pls pls pls.
i want to dream de same dream i had.
everyday. everynite.

Love.

Happy NIU year...........!

*********************

so CNY is here.....

and i wore green on de first day...(those born in the year of Ox to wear green on the first day as predicted by Dunno-Who for good luck)....hee.......yes...i belif in these things. like, i reli reli do.

******

was on de way home.
bumped into him.
lost so much weight. (like what is your gf doin man! doesnt she let u eat or sumtink)
looked so haggard. (like please go have a haircut)
he was with her.
and i was with another him.
so we just walked past each other.
he looked down all the way.
why?
did he look down coz he already saw me from far?
or was he looking down all de way dat he din even notice me?

but she did.
i looked at her. not in awe but in disgust.

i cud see she was holding tight to him.(like pls....i wont steal him away la)
but he din look too happy.
he looked pissed. angry. sad. i dunno. cant be bothered.

anw i din feel anytink.
cant be bothered even if i were to bump into him again.
im done with him.

done. done. done.

Love.

Good Monday all!

had a good but too short weekend...

next stop...batam pls.....

on another note, was on the computer when i heard cries outside.

being the KPO me, i looked out the window to find de source of the crying...

what i saw reli disturbed me.

right across the block...a boy was running around the living room trying to escape the caning of the mum.

he was crying and wailing to the mum to not cane him.

the mum ran after him...went round and round...

the mum gave up running and threatened to hit him with the stand fan

so, she was holding the cane in one hand and a stand fan on the other hand.

the dad tried to stop but de mum pushed the dad away.

de dad seem to not want to get involved.

de boy fell and there.......de mum caned him.

i counted.

about ten times.

if not, more.

she yelled to de boy in mandarin, " How many times have i told u not to copy?!!!!!! I especially hate people who copy!!!!!!!"

the mum, still in her working clothes screamed and yelled.

de dad told her to stop coz ppl are watching ( i think de dad spotted KPO me opp looking at them).

de mum shouted, " So what! See then see lah! let everybody see i beat up my son!"

the boy then got up, stil sobbing and walked to the kitchen.

then their another son walked to the living room from the kitchen.

the mum suddenly got up and caned him for God-knows-what reasons.

The boy pleaded with the mum to stop.

the mum kept caning....

Is that how a child should be discipline?

if i were to get caned for everytime i copy, there'd be no more space on my skin for any more canings...

on a personal note, i reli hate and despise those who cane and hit children in thinking that it would discipline them!

to adults: shall i get the boss to cane you everytime you make a mistake at work?

they may be children...but they are humans too!

talk to them. befriend them. they may not listen the first and second time. Be patient and consistent. most importantly, no double standards.

do u think they purposely wan to copy other's work or commit those mistakes that are socially or morally wrong?

of coz not. they are just children. they are scared that if they dont do well in school, the parents would punish them harshly...so they copy....in thinking that they wud escape the caning once they do well...(that is if they copy the smartie's work)

and who are the ones that emphasized again and again to do well and do better than others.

the adults do.

so adults, pls instill the right mindset into the children's mind.

they are children. Let them enjoy their childhood.

dont let them be as competitive as the adults are in the working world.

Love.

im hooked to this....

its not healthy tho considering ive got 2 assignments due in a few days time n ive yet to start anything....

sumbody, tel me where to buy time?

Love.

i so swear NEVER EVER to eat half cooked cockles animore. ( tho i soooo soo love it!)

this is what happens when i refuse to listen to de advice(s) of my loved ones when they say : "Dont eat half cooked cockles! so bloody and not good for ur health..."..or so they said.

the result of being stubborn:
1) diarrhoea
2) high fever
3) terribly aching body
4) a spinning head
5) stomachache
6) No strength to even get out of bed
7) Passed out on the way to the kitchen
8) not being able to go sch to hand up assignment----hence it will be marked late and graded one grade lower than my actual grade. =(

i need to rest. like really rest.
goodbye my favourite cockles...

Love.