Say you're sorry, that face of an angel

Comes out just when you need it to,

As I paced back and forth all this time

Cause I honestly believed in you.



Holding on, the days drag on

Stupid girl, I should have known

Im not a princess, this aint a fairytale

Im not the one you'l sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell~

Love.

Last night, while Rummying...

Suhasrin to Sofia: Da cakap rummy?
Damai and Nid: Ah tudoh tudoh kena ambik card lagi.
Suhasrin: EH aper tudoh...i was just asking..

One of us: Eh siaper nyer turn ah?
Any of us: Eh cepat ah. Jalan ah!

Damai: Eh Suhasrin card lalu la. boleh nampak semua.
Suhasrin: Kalau orang ader amanah kan..even if i put the card in front of you, you wouldnt go n see..

Damai: Eh aper ni.....Cakap intercept NURHIDA!
Nurhida: (with the mina-est face)ok ah...INTERCEPT!
Sofia: INTERCEPT!
Damai: IT'S YOUR TURN! tak payah ckp intercept!

Suhasrin: Eh kiter orang satu hari tak gadoh tak boleh eh?

Like there was once when we all tried to be normal friends with each other.
With the goodbye hugs and all.
But it didnt work out.

Coz Damai showed us the finger right after the hug.

Lets just be ourselves.
Coz that's what I love about us.
Cant wait for fireworks.

Love.

Hello to the last week of 2009.

Pumped last Sat..and so.....

Bouncer: Yang ni namer siaper?
She: Sofia...
Bouncer: Lawa eh...

Siaper ni lah kiter kan.
Sofia skarang kan lawa.
UPtown girl, she's been living in her UPtown world...=)

And Sun..went over to Damai's in the evening,
supposedly to fill up the application form.
But we ended up watching S'pore Idol..
and it was very exciting indeed...

Suhasrin: Abeh Damai bising bising ni buat aper...vote ar if u wan him to win.
Damai: ok ah...number aper number...?
Suhasrin: .......(Engrossed with her FaceBook bowling).....
Damai: Eh....vote jugak ah..
Suhasrin: Ok fine i will..(rolls eyes)

And we did not vote in vain.
Congratulations Sezairi!

And after all the excitement we got hungry..

Suhasrin: Want to go eat anot?
Damai: ok ah..tapi Damai broke..
Suhasrin: Aiya...nvm la. lets go.
Damai: Ok wait let me get changed.
Suhasrin: Eh dah mandi ke belom?
Damai: Ala...satu hari kat rumah jer...
Suhasrin: EEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeee..

Suhasrin: Eat where? you always say west side VERY happening..
Damai: Eh happening aper...ok..there's Al-Azhar...Al-Azhar...(still thinking)......there's Al-Azhar...
Suhasrin: Oh wow..any other places...?
Damai: Al-Azhar!!!

And so we went to THE happening place in the west...

Im still craving for Cheng Tng tho...

Love.

Remember how we cried 10 yrs ago?


Haha.
The thing was, we were just goin to diff classes.
But we(I) cried as if sumone had passed on.


Some of us might have drifted apart over the years.
Some of us do not even keep in contact anymore.
Perhaps, some of us dun even remember today.

Anyway, why 23rd eh?

~Those were the best days of my life...~





Happy 23rd Loves....

Love.

Last week in Boracay,

one was busy 'Baby' here and 'Baby' there.
'Miss you baby' and 'Love you baby'.

And one was 'Sayang' here and well,
'Sayang' there.

And I,
was just pretending to be oblivious to all these.

Insensitive.
Hmph!

Wonder wat wld be Sofia's way of annoying me if she was there.

Damai..come back alrdy.
The other two are neglecting me. =(

Miss you all.
Sat then.............................................

Remember how you were always late for our dates?

Remember how you left me all alone searching for you in the middle of the night?

Remember how i trusted in you despite whatever bad things ppl said abt you?

Remember how angry you were when i said that a man hugged me at work?

Remember the 2 kg bdae cake you bought for me,
which we had to finish it all by ourselves?

Remember how we travelled aimlessly in the lorry?

Remember how we were hooked to TitansQuest?

Remember how you peeped over the door to surprise me when you reached home?

Remember how you bought chicken rice,
and send it to my then workplace everyday without fail?

Remember how you surprised me every now and then to fetch me home from work?

Remember how you cycled me to work every morning?

Remember how i looked after you when you got drunk?

Remember how you taught me to rollerblade? (Which i i stil cant master til today)

Remember those lazy sundays?

Remember how we would fight over the toilet?

Remember how you would style your hair with so much effort,
but at the end of the day you's still look the same?

Remember how we stupidly find for tailor to fix up the costumes for my children?

Remember how we sneaked in sandwiches to the movies?

Remember how i waited for you to reach home everyday?

Remember how we cycled from tamp all the way to east coast,
and i was half dead and cldnt cycle home?

Remember our 'i shouldnt be alive' days?

Remember how i would cook and waited for you to reach home and have dinner together?

Remember how you would let me have my way all the time?

Remember how you encouraged me in everything i that i did?

Remember how you pampered me all the time?

i do.

One thing about you,
You were very good with your words.
Yes.
But I know you meant every single word you said.
All those promises you did fulfil them.

You're not a sweet talker.
You've never been.
It's just that you really know how to compose your words,
to assure, and reassure me.

And you did,
for 21 months.

Happy Birthday Chen Jian Fan.

Love.

hi my sweetheart..

Da Lung...Da Lung..
Da Lung Da Lung Da Lung
Da Lung Da Lung...
(think pink panther)

See you my sweetheart.
Love.

And since im gonna stay at work till 6 ltr,
i shall watch this.
On youtube.
New drama.
Starring..*clears throat*..my hubbyyyyyy!!

Luo Zhi Xiang is his name. Love.




Hi my sweetheart!
Bye bye world.
Its me and him time now. Hoho.

Love.

He looks ah pek here.
but he's still my charming old man.




~zui ai ni de ren shi wo,
ni zhe me she de wo nan guo,
zai wo zui xu yao ni de shi hou,
mei you shuo yi ju hua jiu zou...~

Love.

This charming old man is gonna be in town tonight!
Huang Pin Yuan is his name.







And i am not gonna be there!

Pppppfffffttttt!!!!!

But i'd love to think that i'd be near him tonight.

(Me at work which is very near indoor stadium where he'd be. heh)

This song is a theme song from a movie that he acted as a gangster,

hence the big tattoo on the neck. But still charming..

Love.

New camera: Checked.

Ipod FM transmitter: Checked

Ipod docker thing (dunno wats the actual name): Checked

Next on list: GPS...laptop and phone too perhaps.



Electrical stuff can never last long with Suhasrin.
(or perhaps nothing can ever last long with her)

Every single electrical stuff i buy can never last me a year,
or perhaps just over a year.

Whoever that curse me on these electrical stuff, can you pls uncurse me?

Thank you very much.

While Eunice happily chats with her ex colleagues,

Suhasrin tried out almost every camera of every brand.

Poor salesman had to put in and take out the battery for the different cameras for me.

Then, the man saw the libra sign on my wrist.

Salesman: Ohhhh..you libra. No wonder cannot choose lar.

Suhasrin: What cannot choose? We must slowly weight the pros and cons of everything.

Salesman: No la. You all dunno how to weigh thats why you all need the weighing machine.

Suhasrin: Eh you know ar...the camera is still in my hand. i havent buy yet hor. Your sales quota is in my hands.

Salesman: Wah...ok ok you win alrdy.

Nice ppl at Song Brothers gave me the camera at cost price.

Thank you thank you.

Dear camera,

I promise to love and sayang you.

Despite not being pink.

I will still love and protect you always.

Love.

Suhasrin: Eh you watch Princess and the frog alrdy?
Eunice : Yar yar. Very nice.
Suhasrin: Good for you lar! i got nobody to watch with..
Eunice : Aiyo...So ke lian..
Suhasrin: CB you. Make me sound so pathetic.

And come to tink of it...yar im that pathetic.
Scrolling down my phonebook,
i realise that no one's free for me,
even to just go buy camera wit me,
hah.
yes..my camera is dead.
Place of death: Boracay.
Clever camera chose such a nice place to die at.

Its fri alrdy. how fast.
Good morning nice people!

Love.

THIS CRAMP IS KILLING ME!

and i ran out pads.
gave all of mine to Nid in Phil.
Hence, i need to drag myself.
To go buy pads ltr.
Perhaps, i'd need to crawl ltr.

It hurts so bad.
To make matter worse,
nearest shop that i can go to is:
Tiong Bahru or Vivo.
i dun even wan to think abt the traffic jam.

AAAaaaaarrrrrgggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somebody kill me pls.
Kill me till i die!
Coz the cramp is just killing me.
But not making me die.


In pain.

In Shen Zhen, China, they insisted that i'm from China too and didn't believe i'm Singaporean Malay.

In the early days in Phil, they say i look Chinese and my friends(Damai, Shy, Nid) are Filipinos.

After spending days in the beach under the hot sun, ppl start to talk in Tagalog to me.

How many days do i have to spend in India to be looking like one of them?



Mdm Mensus is very clever this month.
To visit after a day i reach home.
However, go easy on the cramp pls.
im in enuf pain alrdy.
Thank you. Salamat!

Updates on the Phil trip another day when the cramp is over.


Love.

Manila and Boracay!
See you soon.
i wish i can say the same to Taiwan too.
Sigh Sigh Sigh.
Sob Sob Sobzzzzzzzzz.

i dread the plane ride.
totally dreading it.
Aerophobia.

Goodbye Loves.

In the day, i nearly crashed into an oncoming car at a multistorey carpark.
That was very close.
Very.


At night, I knocked someone down.
Literally,
Tho he exaggerated a lil bit.
I swear i din see him coming.
Nonetheless, its my fault i know.
I unbuckled and was ready to get down the car to apologize and ask how is he.
He looked like he was going to beat me up.
But he just walked away after i wind down the window and apologized non stop.
Weird.



im superbroke.
how to holiday?
Its sad enough that its gonna be a taiwanless 2009.
oh well...



The other night i reached home late.
I took out my phone ready to dial your number.
To talk to you as i walk home. Like we always do.
Only to realise minutes ltr that you're not in town.



~You are far
Im never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces
And mend my heart
Maybe I'll be strong enough
I dont know where to start...

...Strange that I was wrong enough
To think you love me too
I guess you were kissing a fool~

Nice family portrait.

If it makes you happy.

Love.

And so we pumped on sat night.
I was kinda hungry so we had a quick bite.
Craved for frappe and so I McCafed.

Dear friends, lets McCafe first everytime we pump.
Heh. I'l gladly do the ordering..=)

Sent everyone back and by the time i reached home, its 5am.
Had to wake up at 630 to go work to finish up my damaged crabs.
Woke up with super aching body.
Danced too hard. Heh.
Another great way to destress.

And so it was time.
The day. THE day.
Party boys zhi dao xiong di wei ni cheng yao...Boom Yeah! Boom lets get this party crazy!

Eunice's class didnt turn out well all thanks to her God sister at the PA System.
She came out the backstage and cried when she saw me.
Apparently, her song was cut half.
like what the F***?
Irresponsible.
Not even an apology for cutting the song into half.
And even blame Old Airport ppl for not telling them the duration of the song.
F***er!
We went thru the rehearsal just fine!
And if theres no instruction for you to stop the song then dont stop it lar!!
We're not as lazy as you ppl who dance only half song for every item.
And it wasnt just Eunice's class.
She started almost all songs late!
Good thing for her she din screw mine.
Or else, she'd never get to see daylight again!

Im done with crabs.
At last.
I thought I'd never live to see this day.
heh.


Thank you to all who have helped in one way or another.

Goin Parkway wit Eunice now!
I want to eat.
Bye!


Love.

It read:


" Whatever happened to taking things slow..Heehee..But its a good thing la."
26th Oct. 2009 17:51

"Plus...i'd be damn stupid to let you go la...Really..."
27th Oct. 2009 10:14

" She is worth it...N im de type to wait..I just hope she wants to change..Not herself but her bad habits la..Even if she doesnt, im hooked..So im quite done for."
28th Oct. 2009 15:47

"...I promise to never make you cry..."
29th Oct. 2009 09:43

"...Really baby, this feels so right..:)"
31 Oct. 2009 02:21

"Are you kidding.. U dun think im worried? Its our first stumbling block..N i really think we can get over it..I know u said it first..baby i love u..N these past few weeks i feel loved, appreciated n cared for..And it's all because of u..Just dun take it away from me now.."
2 Nov. 2009 07:57

"I realized we've gone abt this de wrong way n im at fault..We keep saying we wanna take things slow but we didnt..."
4th Nov. 2009 11:07

"I know there is no reset button...But I wish there was..And I dun want to hurt you..De last thing i want is for tt..But really..We need to slow it down.."
4th Nov. 2009 11.35



Reading my inbox makes me smile.
And also tear at the same time.
I miss you.
So much.
But those feelings,
i shall just keep them with me for now.


Love.

Thur night while watching tv preparing to go to slp,
I smelled durians.
Yes!
But it was late at night and when i start to smell something that is out of sight,
it simply means im craving for it!
And so next morning i text my Queens in hoping that they would entertain my craving.
Being the sweetest creature on Earth, Sofia replied and yay!
Who on earth in the right state of mind would say no to durians? (Other than Saiful of course)


And durians we had.
Yuuummmmmmmmmmmmmm!


Suhasrin decides to Karaoke.
Never mind that Sofia was broke. Suhasrin belanja ok.
heh.
Nid and Siddiq joined us for that.
Impromptu karaoke was good.
to destress.
Before the tears started to drop, sofia pulled me out for a smoke.
Thank you love.


To dearest Queen of Club; Damai. Hope ure having fun!
Sorry that we durianed and Karaoked without you.
But we sure didnt forget you.
Missing you much and see you on Thurs!

Ps: Damai, we might pump tonight! hoho. dun worry.
Sofia just wants to make sure that addy's fine. hah.


~There are times it seems to me,
Im sharing you in memories.
I feel it in my heart but I dont show it, show it.
Then there's time you look at me,
as tho Im all that you can see.
Those times I dont believe it right,
i know it, I know it.
Dont make me promises,
baby you never did know how to keep them well...

...Is this how it ends,
with a simple telephone call,
you leave me here,
with nothing at all...~


Love.

Red top. Checked.

Did not drive.

Hence we 'cab marathon' (in eunice's words)

I guess me n her always very suay.

everytime take cab together the uncle sure very lor sor/ti ko.

during dinner, she sat there staring at me.

Rolling her eyes most of the times.

heh.

she confessed that i talk too much.

calls me irritating.

calls me a bitch. all the time.

and that she sees alot of her in me.

and alot of me in her.

She said that I was difficult to talk to last time.

But now she just wish that I would shut up.

hah.

and also, im her new Baby.

hahahahah..

Eunice: Eh B, i want to go that shop...
Suhasrin: (???????)
Eunice: hahahahaha..sorry sorry i thought ure Shamus!

Eunice ar...Wo hui bu hao yi si de leh..hahahah

Love!

5 more min and its time to knock off.



here i am blogging!



haha.



gonna shirt hunt ltr.



with eunice.



for a red top.



to wear on sun.



apparently, tchers need to wear same colour as their form class.



n so i'd need to wear like my crabs; red.



if its a dress i'l look like a hong bao. heh.



just hope i wont die on sun.



As i will be in red, i will come back to haunt if i were to die.



And the first place i'd haunt would be Young Talents.









The colourful vitagenssss i had are taking its effect now.



Other than the staircase, today the next place i visited most is the toilet.



hoho.

ok eunice is here.

Love!!!

On a Monday afternoon, a grandma n her beloved grandchild were playing telephone (u noe, those DIY phone that uses a thread to connect):


Grandma: Hello, can i speak to Nur Fitrizah pls?
Fifi: Yes i am her? why?
Grandma: Oh hello. how are you?
Fifi: i am fine thank you.
Grandma: What are you doing now?
Fifi: I am watching tv. Would you like to go McDonalds today?
Grandma: Sorry not today.
Fifi: Why?
Grandma: i got alot of work to do la.
Fifi: o ok then. nvm. Bye Bye!
Grandma: Wait wait! hello hello! Would you like to go to McDonalds tmr?
Fifi: Oh sorry. i got lots of work to do tmr! Bye Bye!


Hmmmm....a 6 yr old having sch holidays has lots of work to do??


Met up wit Damai who was with Shy @ Kampong Glam Cafe.

Phone rings. i answered:

Damai: Sempat tak kalau jumper kat kampong glam cafe dulu?
Suhasrin: Ya sure. i just left house anw.
Damai: You know where's the place right?
Suhasrin: Yar yar yar. Yang jual Teh Tolak tu kan?

heheheh. ok inside joke. But its funny wat. no meh? hahahha

it all happened on a cold rainy night at kampong glam cafe.

Waiter: Nak air aper dik?

Me: Teh satu.

Waiter left and came back shortly...

Waiter: Dik, teh nak teh biaser ke? Teh tarik ke? Teh aper? Teh ader banyak teh tau.

Me: Ah..teh tarik ah teh tarik satu.

Waiter left again and came back again...

Waiter: Tadi teh aper eh dik? Teh tarik kan?

Me: Teh tarik teh tarik...

Waiter: Betol eh teh tarik?

Me: Yer la bang...apaper ah. Teh Tolak pun boleh.

And the Queens looked at each other with complete silence.

Hey...its funny wat! heh.

And Damai, i want that shiny top and shiny leggings!!

Sofia, im sure OBS was VERY fun for you. i'l show you the 'wei sen you' oil. and you'l do just fine in ports. Think of it, its very near my house! =)

Nid, hope the HDB application went well.

And he has a name now, Knight he will be. Knight-o....adapted from Zettai Kareshi. An ideal boyfriend. Who's custom made according to wat the girl wants and needs.

Knight-O has always been there for me. When im alone n sad he has never abandoned me.

Even when he's tired and petrol light is blinking, he stil made it to the nearest petrol station wit me.

On another note,

Can i just lie in your arms forever coz it just feels so perfect.

~i wanna know what love is,
i want you to show me,

i wanna feel what love is,

i know you can show me...~




Love.