why do i feel that you dont feel the same?

evoL.

i wish you'd just call me now.
Yup..i noe you'd say 'keep on wishing.'

And i'l do just that.

Love.

if only you were in front of me,
i'd just hug you tight.

Love.

im secretly wishing for those good night kisses.
Though i know wishes will always remain as wishes.

Love.

Happy 3rd of the month, Love.

That disney princess curtain at parkway is so pretty.
But i cant spend that money now.
:(

Love.

Why do you need to be so mean with your words?

Love.

Secretly, im hoping for the seoul garden date still.

Love.

Never knew it would hurt this bad.

Love.

Why did i ever bother to come back?

='(

Love.

All i want in this relationship is...
Us.

Love.

Fine.

So I'l be gone for only a week.
What's the big deal you say.

Sigh.

Love.

The reason why i dont want to tell you.
is because i know i wont get any solution from you.

but you both kept bugging me abt it.
And so i spill the beans in the end.

And what's the outcome?
I needed to explain to you over and over again.
i needed to repeat the same thing over and over again.

Do you know how frustrating it gets??????

if any of you decides to help me and give me that $200,
i'd be truly grateful.
But if not, im fine with it too.

However, i'd be more grateful if you'd spare me,
all those unnecessary comments and naggings.

I understand you're just being concern.
Really.

Since you have already decided to put Knight under my name,
that means you want me to be fully responsible for it,
which i have been, and will always be.

If you really wanna help,
why dont you help me pay my insurance for the time being?
Or at least spare me some cash for my Taiwan trip as well as Japan/Korea??

Why dont you spare me the agony,
of having to go through that same thing every morning?????

But the best would be to just help yourself.
To go to the doctor and get your leg treated!!
And no, the doc will not put you to sleep even if he knows you're on pension scheme.

Love.

This is a story.
About a pathetic girl.
Who doesnt even have money for her lunch,
for her ez link.

And also for her long awaited Taiwan trip.

Please allow her to cry.
Thank you.

Love.

Sooooooo.....

Can i request for Date #6 soon please?

I'm getting butterflies.
I'm floating on a dream.
Now my world starts spinning.
My heart pounds.
So happy that I could cry.
When I look in your eyes.
Cause you keep giving me,
Keep giving me butterflies~~

Love.

Like seriously.
Be HIP.
Be Original!

Love.

Not how i would like our 3rd day of the month to be spent.

Love.

Its very sad that the nights have been ending with quarrels.
So you say ive been troublesome of late.
You get so angry that you say hurtful remarks.

And you say dont cry.
I wish to stop crying too.
But tell me how.
When all you do is blast when i falter.

but i dont blame you.
Im sorry for havent being my best.
Im sorry for being childish.
And finding fault with you all the time.

Hey you,
Please dont get mad at the slightest thing.
Do guide me along.
Will you?

I'm not perfect, but i keep trying~


Love.

Note to self:

think positive.
erase negative thoughts.
nothing is happening.

Love.

and he said, "I love my gf. I love you."

Awwwww...

Love.

And i.
Cant wait.
For date.
Number 4.

Falling.
For.
You.
Everyday.

Love.

Am i right to say i'm one of the three annoying homosapians?

Hugss. Everything's gonna be alright, love.


When they asked me what i loved most about life,
i smiled and said you.






Love.

After watching Medical Touch on Fri,
i can say im officially scared.

What if..............?

If right now a ghost were to appear in front of me,
i wouldnt give a damn.
Coz ive got other fears to face now.

Love.

I
am
very
scared.

Either she found nothing at all.
Or.
She found something very serious.

One week.
Just one more week.

Love.

its about 2 months away.
and im already so stress planning it.

My concern:
1. For all to look pretty and handsome.
2. To have it somewhere i hv nvr been to.
3. Everyone to be comfortable and enjoy themselves and be happy!

And its impossible.
So...
I GIVE UP!
i dun wan to plan anymore.
I
GIVE
UP!

ppppfffffffftttttt!

Saddened.

Though I very much wish,
that you'd come around and wipe these tears away,
and tell me everything's alright now.

However, i'l just let these tears be my company for now.
To wash the pain away.

Im sorry for haven't being my best.

Love.

If i were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ear that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
and say you love me one more time.

Love.

Even heroes have the right to bleed
so why cant i,
a plain normal human being
just breakdown and cry?

And once done,
i'l get myself back up again.
Promise.

Love.

i understand ure edgy.
but can u pls dun vent it on me?
i understand u just want to be left alone.
But can u pls dun deny me that chance of wanting to make it all better for you?

Love.

You always thought that i was stronger.
I may have failed,
But i have loved you from the start.

Love.

Date #2:

i love seeing u in that tshirt u wore yesterday. :)
fireworks was simply breath taking.
i love hearty talks too.
yes, i get butterflies in the stomach still,
When you put your hand around my waist as we walk.
You dancing and being caught on the security camera was hilarious.
Thank you for the ice cream.
and "For goodness sake........." ;p


i want my Date #3 sooooooooooon...
Hugs.

Love.

just when im so excited to meet up with you girls,
it's cancelled yet again.

Love.

i didnt know how much i've missed you.
Until we met last night.
i didnt realise i missed you that much.
Since the last time we met.

i love our talks in the car.
i miss watching Upin n Ipin.
i want to watch Letters to Juliet.
and drink honey red tea with big pearls with you by my side.


Love.

And for the 3rd time...

of course im gonna say........

YES!!!!!

Can't wait for the 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th, 10th, 11th, 12th, 13th, 14th, 15th, 16th, 17th, 18th, 19th, 20th, 21st, 22nd, 23rd, 24th, 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th, 29th, 30th........................and on and on and on... :p

Love.

Cough. Cough.
Sniff. Sniff.

Can i dun board that ferry?


Love.

If my plan is to not have any children of my own in the future,
i would have long taken out my reproductive system.
But i shall be strong.
And endure whatever pain that comes in my way.

Or maybe not.
Can i just cry?
Coz it hurts so bad.
Just kill me pls..


Love.

Give me more lovin than i've ever had
make it all better when im feeling sad
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not
make me feel good when i hurt so bad..

Love.

Just when i thought that everything is fine now,
it happens again.

Clueless to what has happened,
i am told to better stay away.

ok i will.
i will be strong this time.

i will not let my emotions get the better of me.
i can do this, of course i can.

Hey you, i dunno what has happened.
please feel better soon.
Hugsss~

Love.

all i wanted was to be there whenever u needed sumone.
but it seems to me im not that someone.

~ I cant cry hard enough
For you to hear me now~

Love.

Dear God,

please give me the strength to be strong.
to not let my emotions get the better of me.

Love.

One of the things i hate: ppl to touch my things without permission!

i dun care who you are but just leave my things alone!

ive told you that i will look for it when i get back!

then why you still anyhow ransack my stuff???!!!!!

then take alrdy let me know la!

i searched for it high and low as soon as i got back...

and only to find out that you have found it and kept it??




And you...

what's up with the horns??!!!

dun you noe your hornings never fail to spoil my day??????


kill me pls.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you would always come down from one corner of The Lion City to the other corner of The Lion City where I would be, just to give me a big hug and tell me everything's alright now.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you tricked me to go get something from your box only to find out later that you planned it all coz u got for me my long awaited cookies. *Awwwwwwww*
(i never told u this, but i was kinda touched. haha. ok Goosebumps)

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you tell me, 'Wanna knoe something? Awak tau tak kiter saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayang awak.'

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you ask, 'Wanna meet me today?'

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

ive got ur undivided attention.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you show me that you care.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you say that you miss me.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you tell me Almahdi Anuar saaaaaaaaayang Noor Suhasrin Binte Hassan.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you call me, ' hey Gf...'

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

i get to drive.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

we're watching Upin & Ipin in the car.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

you make me mad, but make me laugh the next moment.

i like it whennnnnnnnn.....

its your turn to complete the sentence.


ive fallen.
for you-guess-who.
so tell me, how do you do it?

Love.

i dun like.
to go to sleep.
feeling unhappy.
about something.
about anything.
and that was.
what happened.
last night.
hence the mood.
the sucky mood.
the frown.
the inverted smile.
the rolling of eyes at everything.
the raising of voice at the slightest irritation.

='(

love.

SGF **** M.

=)

Love.

Can i just say....

i miss the Queens, so much.

Love.

Wow Weeeee.....

Been very long since ive touched this page huh..


heh...

So these few months has been normal.
Everyday's a routine.


But MAY is gonna be exciting!!
Whoohooo!!!


ok so the KL trip is done.
Had a blast.
Update that another day. =)



Guess who's coming down on 22nd May??!!!






Hehehehehehehhehe!!!

How lovely is that!
And and and..............
on the 20th May,
he's gonna be at city square mall.


*Floats in the air*







and i heard, he's gonna be signing autograph at IMM on the 23rd.
Aaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!

Help help i cant breathe......!!

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

Ooooohhh...n i heard that ppl with the concert tix can go up on stage with him on the 20th at city square. heee.............*Blink Blink Blink*

Oh my Oh my...

Sofiaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
Any contest that i can enter this year to get priority tix again like last year?

Eunice...bear with me on the 22nd!
Standby an ambulance.

Love.

In pain.

Why?! Why?! Whhhhhhhhhyyyyyyy???????!!!!!
Why must we bleed???????!!!
WHY????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS PAINFUL!!! SO PAINFUL!!

='(

Love.

So, chen bao chu now knows Hsuei Hai is Da Lung,
and Da Lung is Hsuei Hai.
And it just ended there.
The next episode, i can foresee more tear drowning scenes.

I hope, this will be like any typical Taiwanese serial with happy ending.
Coz if it was a HK serial, it'l always be a sad one.


Love.

im disgusted.
totally.
utterly.

ok.
im done.
full stop.
move on now.
Next..


Love.

So with the swollen eyes

(after crying so much frm watchin Hai Pai Tian Xin)

i went to Fifi's Orientation camp.

And there I was tearing seeing her parade thru the hall

with the classmates.

And this is only watching my niece in P1.

I tink if it was my own child,

I'd be an embarassment to my husband on that day.

Heh.

Love.

Watched Ep 10 and i cried a river.

by the time it reaches the last episode,

i'd be crying an ocean alrdy.

Love.

sHe calls me baby,
then sHe wont call me.
says sHe adores me,
then sHe ignores me.

What's the problem?

sHe keeps her distance,
and sits on fences.
puts up resistance,
and builds defenses.

You leave me hanging on the line,
everytime you chnage your mind.

First you say you wont,
then you say you will,
you keep me hanging on,
and we're not moving on,
we're standing still.

Love.

My camera battery is faulty.

Or perhaps it's the adapter.

Well done!

Good job!!

Keep it up!!!

urgh!!!!

Love.