if we stil matter to you,
these are the reasons for the tears that i couldnt hold back:

it doesnt matter that i made plans with you first. Fine. it was more practical to leave the car over the weekend at the service centre. i understand. but why didnt you discuss with me first? why didnt you tel me you had to take the cake for your friend? oh it was last minute, i see. but was it my fault that my car took more than half a day to service? i told you 2 days ago to help me go down to settle my car things for me. but no, you obviously had other last minute plans to disrupt whatever that was planned earlier. fine. lot 1 was near your place. but why didnt you scold your friend for ordering the cake last minute???? why was i the one being scolded that my car took more than half a day to be serviced?? i didnt ask for your help just now at 4pm. in case you forgotten, i told you 2 days ago. so which part of 2 days ago is last minute???? why does it seem that my things does not matter at all to you????????????????? if i was the one helping others to collect stuff last minute which will disrupt our plan, im pretty sure you'd be very unhappy with me to the extend that you wouldnt even want to meet up with me anymore. oh wait....yes that did happen before.
Why cant i use my own car on sunday?? why cant i send back my car for servicing on sun night? why???? oh...because you wouldnt want to accompany me again to the place coz its gonna be troublesome. yes. i know. im troublesome much. sorry for all the trouble you had to go through because of me. i wonder why it wasnt troublesome when other ppl conveniently last minute asked for your favour and you gladly agreed at the expense of me.
all those scoldings i got over the phone was worth it to you? all because you had to collect the cake for your friend at the last minute??
im not comparing who is more important here whether me or your friend(s), but the fact that i made plans with you first, shouldnt you at least have the courtesy to let me know first?? that you are gonna collect the cake??fine it was last minute of your friend, then you should have told me as soon as you found out you needed to collect it! you see...this is what happen when two ppl dont communicate. i think you should know that you dont tell me much things. and i dont know much about whats going on on your side. and when i make plans that wouldnt suit you, it'l be my fault.
and now youre gonna say you always have to satisfy my emotional needs. and youre sick and tired. its so sad everytime i hear you say that coz it seems like to you, this rship is not worth fighting for. is it?
i miss you. i miss the times we had. i miss the dates we had. i really would love to hear you ask me out on a date again. i understand im not your only worry. youve got loads of more important things to take care of. honestly, i really would like to feel that im important in your life. im sorry coz i havent felt that for quite some time now. and im sorry i havent been able to trust you. im sorry that because of that, we end up quarreling more than usual. i just need alot of assurance from you. lots of it. i need assurance more than other girls do. but dont for that reason you say we cant work out. dont for that reason you say you want to give us up.
i dont think you know how much ive held back. for fear that you would get upset with me everytime i talk to you about whatever that's making me upset. and everytime i cant take it any longer, i'd just tell you abt it, but that would for sure lead to a big fight all the time.
why cant i cry to you? why cant i tell you my feelings no matter how ridiculous it might sound? why do i feel that youre so distant?
do you know that telling me you love me means alot to me? doesnt matter if you say it all the time. i wont get tired of hearing it. Never. you'd say it wont be special anymore if you were to say it all the time. but i think otherwise.
i miss you. i miss you. i miss you terribly.
dont get upset that im writing this here.
these are the things that i know would upset you very much if i were to talk to you about it.

hey you, i love you. very much.
i dont care what obstacles we need to go through as long as we go through it together.
No exit clause, right?

Love.

P.s: will you travel from your place to mine just to wipe my tears away?