Hello blog.

i decide to write again and make this my channel of letting things out.

At least, this blog will not scold me or judge me or call me names.

Till then, See you soon..

Love.

Don't get mad when a girl cares too much. Worry when she starts not to care anymore.

Love.

Why do you not know where to bring me out anymore? I wish you'd just bring me out. Anywhere will do. A movie, a walk down town, a stroll along the beach, dinner anywhere, coffee and chats..

I'm still waiting for date #8. it stopped at #7 for the longest time. You said you can't be bothered anymore. But I'm still waiting. I hope you'd call me one day and say, "let's go on date #8."

Exactly a year ago, you took me by the hand just after we've crossed a traffic light. That had awaken all the butterflies in my stomach. A beautiful moment that i'l never forget.

Love.

you and your fucking family can go and die.

i did not deserve those words from you!

you call me stupid?

so are you!

so pls...go find other school for your daughter.

before this teacher starts to teach your daughter stupid stuff.

Those words were hurtful.

For it wasn't true at all.

I kept quiet not because I'm guilty.

But because I don't want it to lead to a fight.

I always wonder...

Have I really become such a person in your eyes now?

Wish you hadnt said those words.

Wish you didnt had to hurt me that way.

But baby,

I love you still, always.

Love.

and i wonder.
why couldnt we just meet up.
just because we missed each other so.

why do i need valid reasons to see you.
why do i need valid reasons to call you.

ok. so i called at the wrong time.
coz you were playing game.
well, im sorry.
that i wanted so much to talk to you there and then.

secretly, ive been hoping you'd just appear before me.
and say, 'come lets have dinner'.

you say im a psychomaniac.
you call me pekak.
you call me bodoh.
you say im fucking selfish.

when i got so scared, you just told me off,
and said its my problem.

and i thought you wouldnt hurt me so.
i didnt understand why you had to be so mad.
That you ignored my msges, my calls.
You even cancelled them.

i begged you.
but it fell on deaf ears.

i wish last night didnt happened.

Love.

Ps: this morning, someone wearing the same scent as you did a year ago walked past me.
and i realise how much i miss you so. it scares me that our rship has reached to this point where youre hurling vulgarities and calling me names. i miss you.

it was meant to be a big surprise for you. but thanks to my big mouth, it all failed. i would really really like to take you on a holiday on your bdae. coz youve always said its been a long time since youve been on one. i had it all planned.

oh well~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

yes, i do understand your reasons, but im still upset about it.

Love.